One night, I could not sleep (like most nights), because my mind constantly races between thoughts. On this specific night, my mind thought about a girl whom I was friends with back in my university years. Have you ever known someone who just 'got' who you were? I felt like this girl that I knew back in university understood me quickly.
As I moved into my dorm room in first-year university and got to know all of my dorm mates, a friendship quickly blossomed between this girl and myself. Even though we came from different backgrounds and had different interests, I have never felt more connected with someone in those university years, and especially that first year. For example, whenever I made a dirty joke, she would respond with an even dirtier one. We shared our successes and our struggles wholeheartedly with no holding back. She was a great compliment to my personality and it felt like it came naturally. Things just 'clicked' between us.
Even though we were not romantic in any way, I would like to think that we had a great affinity for one another. We would genuinely get excited whenever we saw each other, especially if it has been a significant amount of time. However, as the university years went on, we drifted further and further apart and into our own lives.
There were a few times since I left university that I would randomly think about her and wonder what she is doing. However, I stop short of actually reaching out to her because of the fear of what she might say if I do reach out. I follow a couple of her friends on social media, and sometimes, I would see her. She would act in the same way as how she was when we were in university, and of course, the memories come flooding back in my brain. It seems like she is living a happier life, and I am happy for her.
I just wanted to get this out. I should try to reach out and say hello.
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